I don’t know if you will ever read this. Maybe you will one day. It’s funny. Other than a line on a stick, a smiley face on another, and your mommy’s nausea, we have no real proof that you actually exist. We know you exist, but we have no physical proof — other than what is happening to your mommy. Despite this, it may be comforting to know how much you are already loved.

You are loved so much by your mommy and myself. You are loved so much by grandma and grandpa Bonilla. You are their first grandchild. You are loved so much by auntie Linda. Soon, grandma and grandpa Gonzales will know about you and then you will be loved even more. Soon you will have other aunts and uncles who will know of your existence as well and they will all love you. All this — and you are still just a little prune in your mommy’s tummy (or close enough to it).

I’m not going to say it has been easy for your mommy so far. She does not feel well most of the time. That’s not your fault. It is common during the early portion of a pregnancy. However, no matter how bad she feels, she just has to think of you and the thought of seeing you for the first time and that helps her get through it.

I’d like to tell you a little about your mommy. She has all of the traits that make up a wonderful mother. She is kind, intelligent, compassionate, and loving. In fact, if you ever have any questions about the world, I suggest you go to your mommy. She is more likely to know the answers. She is also very funny with a little bit of dorky sprinkled in — in a good way. She is the most perfect match for me. I wanted you to know this so you know that you are coming into a loving home.

I’m doing my best to take care of your mommy while she is carrying you. I am trying to make sure she eats right and knows that, no matter what, she has my support. It is my mission to do what is best for you and your mommy. When it comes to that, nothing and no one will ever stand in my way. You two are too important to me. You two keep me going. You make make me want to work harder to ensure that you are provided for.

We are looking forward to meeting you and cannot wait to bring you home. Your due date seems so far away, but I am sure it will get here soon enough. Soon, I will be able to hold you in my arms and tell you all of these things in person.